June 10, 2008
Well, it might be. I’m not making any promises either way. Today I am two days late and having my membranes stripped. I’m not looking forward to this procedure, but I am seriously hoping that it works to get my labour started. There are lots of different ways to look at it, and it’s not my ideal start to labour, but if it works and helps me to avoid being induced when I’m ten or twelve days late, I’ll be happy. If it doesn’t work today, we’ll try again in a week. My hope is that if it doesn’t work, I’ll have the baby before we have to try it again.
The best way to describe it, making conclusions from what I’ve read, is that it feels like a very very thorough cervical exam. For those of you who have been nine months pregnant and had a cervical exam (during labour or not), it’s not very comfortable anyway. Rather than just reaching in there to see if you’re dilated, though, the doctor reaches in there and spends a few minutes pushing things around. Ouch. I’m thinking of taking some tylenol pre-appointment, although I’m not sure if it would do any good. I actually have this hope that my labour will start before my appointment and that when she goes to do it, she’ll find that I’m four centimetres dilated or something. I’m pretty certain that this isn’t going to happen, but a girl can hope.
The other thing I wanted to share is a picture. I recently put up pictures of myself on Facebook and MySpace that made me look gigantic. My sister-in-law said that they weren’t very true to life, but exaggerated by the shirt I was wearing. So I had Mike take more last night, hopefully for the last time in this pregnancy. There’s one I’m particularly proud of that I took of just my belly. You can actually see the curve of my back and the wall behind me, so I don’t actually look so huge for once. Anyway, I think that’s what I’ll end on. Hopefully my next entry will include a picture of a baby outside of the womb.
Update, post doctor’s appointment:
My cervix is not ripe. This basically means that my membranes could not be stripped, because my doctor couldn’t get a finger into my cervix (I know, descriptive, but I happen to know that the majority of my readers are women who have had children, so I don’t care). She’ll try again next week, on Monday afternoon, and if that doesn’t work, my induction is scheduled for Friday, June 20th at 8:00 in the morning. Woohoo. I desperately hope that I have this kid before I have to be induced. Meanwhile, when I dropped the kids off to my mother-in-law, she said I could just leave them there and she’d bring them home around four. So they’re having lunch and napping over at her house which leaves me the rest of the day to do whatever. I’m thinking I’ll go nuts on the nesting (is it nesting if you know you’re doing it and would rather be taking a nap?) in the hopes that I’ll make myself go into labour. At this point, I think I’d do almost anything.
June 3, 2008
Mike mentioned the other day that even though I’m sick of being pregnant, I will have the baby this month. It’s one nice thing about being due when I am – I can only really go two weeks late, and that’s still June, so there you have it. I had my appointment today and found out something pretty shocking – I have gained about six pounds in the last week. Yeah, no kidding. I have noticed more back pain and feeling like I’m suddenly huge, so my suspicion is that the baby and the boobs have grown. At least that’s what I’m hoping. I’m also hoping that I have the baby soon, because I did the math, and I’ve now gained about thirty-three pounds during my pregnancy. My doctor actually made the first weight related comment today when she said that I was on target for how much I could gain during pregnancy, if I had the baby today. And then she told me not to have the baby today, because the whole hospital, maternity ward included, is packed. When I went for my first appointment in October, the nurse told me that June was a busy month. I mentioned this to my doctor and she said that she has thirteen!maternity patients due this month. Yikes!! And I’ll remind you that this is not a big city. This is Fort St. John, population 18,000-ish. If I remember correctly, the year Jenny was born, someone told me that we have the highest birth rate per capita in British Columbia. For our population, we were having about 250 babies per year, while Metro Vancouver, population around 2 million, was having 1000 babies per year. Yeah, our population is a fraction of the size of theirs and we are having a quarter of the number of babies they are. I’m sure my statistics aren’t perfect and are somewhat out of date, but still. That’s crazy. Add to that the fact that our hospital is ancient and sucks in a lot of ways, and well, it’s just a lovely place to have a baby.
Anyway, she said, “Don’t have the baby today.” I wonder if tomorrow would be okay. It would help me keep up with the Wednesday, first ten days of the month thing.
Regardless of all that, I have an appointment scheduled for next Tuesday to have my membranes stripped, which I would really love to avoid. If it doesn’t work then, she’ll do it again the next Tuesday, and then if it still doesn’t work, I’ll be induced between the 18th and 20th. I finally got the nerve to ask her what the hospital policy was on induction and she said that it’s more up to her and that she will give two weeks if everything appears to be going well for the baby. It’s very common here to induce after eight days, but she was previously practicing in the UK, where it is never done before twelve days overdue. I was relieved to hear this, because as much as I don’t want to be pregnant for another minute, I also do not want to be induced, so I’ll go as long as I can before putting myself through that again.
As for self-induction, I’ve been doing a bit of boob groping (I don’t know, that just sounds better to me than “nipple stimulation”) in hopes that it might help, but I haven’t noticed anything yet. I’m also planning to do some walking tonight, hopefully after the kids are in bed and things have cooled down a bit outside.
On the kid front, something pretty funny happened this morning, albeit something that required a good deal of clean up afterwards. I put the kids in their room to play for at least an hour and at some point, I remember hearing Jenny say, “Here, I have to change you.” I figured she was talking to one of her dolls or something and didn’t bother checking. Finally, I heard Elias crying and not stopping, so I thought it might be time to go in and rescue him. I found him, completely naked, sitting on Jenny’s bed. She had taken off her shirt and shorts and was pretending to sleep in her bed, ignoring her poor brother. A very dirty diaper was wrapped pretty nicely on the bed. As in, she took it off of him and wrapped it up just like we do. The only problem is that she gave no thought to the fact that he had some of the contents of that diaper still on him. So the sheets were stripped and the poor boy had to endure a good wipe down because it had all dried on by then. Ah, the joy. At least Jenny is trying to help. I told her that this is one thing she can’t help with unless I’m there. And I learned my lesson – don’t ever leave them alone with Elias in only a diaper. It was really warm in the house, he got breakfast all over his pajamas, so I figured it wouldn’t hurt to wait to get him dressed. I was wrong.
Well, once again, I sincerely hope that the next time I write, I will no longer be pregnant. I seriously doubt that will be the case, but you never know.
May 27, 2008
I have had a few weird days physically. Yesterday I was concerned that I might have something serious, but fortunately, the worst of it went away. On Sunday, I felt fine all day and then after supper, my ribs started to hurt. I felt strange and kept getting hot flashes (not those kind, but I imagine they aren’t that different) so I went for a long walk from my in-laws while Mike stayed with the kids. I felt somewhat better when I got back and happily spent almost an hour holding my two week old nephew, who was wide awake. I still had pain in my ribs when I went to bed, and throughout the night, every time I woke up, I had something new bothering me. My head and neck on my right side started to ache and the glands on the right side of my neck were swollen. Most of that is gone now, although it lasted most of the day yesterday. My ribs just keep feeling worse, though. The strange thing is that nothing happened on Sunday that could have injured me. I feel like this is what broken or bruised ribs must feel like, though. Fortunately, I have a doctor’s appointment today and should be able to find out why I’m in pain.
On a different subject, I was filling out a passport application for Elias and they asked for weight and height. I haven’t weighed or measured Elias in a few months, so I did both today, and did both for Jenny as well. I then punched the amounts in on a growth percentile calculator online and found that while Jenny is just about where she has been since she was six months old – around the 50th percentile for weight and height – Elias is still a tiny little munchkin below the 3rd percentile for both. At birth, Elias was around the 40th percentile for weight and the 75th for length, but he has persisted in being tiny ever since. Jenny, on the other hand, was a monster baby until she hit six months – she was above the 97th percentile until then.
A little off topic regarding pregnancy, I suppose, but it is making me wonder how this baby will compare with them for weight and length at birth. I know that most of it is when the baby is born – Elias was early and 7 lb 4 oz, while Jenny was late and 9 lb 6 oz. Three and a half weeks of extra in-womb growth makes quite a difference. My guess is that if this baby was born now, it would be around eight pounds, but I could be off by quite a bit, I suppose. And, if it isn’t born now, I won’t really know what it would have been.
I think as my pregnancy progresses, my writing gets worse. I was terrible at keeping up on my journal with Jenny and Elias, so at least I have a record for this baby. I suppose one reason that my writing suffers is that my son never wants to leave me alone when I’m writing. I end up getting up two or three times to re-locate him or change his diaper or break up a fight between him and his sister or some inanimate object.
Of course, this entry is no different – I have so far left to change his diaper and keep him from dumping Jenny’s water on his head. I suppose this means I had better end this for now, although I will probably write again later after my doctor’s appointment. Hopefully I’ll have some answer about the rib thing by then.
I have costal chondritis. Doesn’t that sound nice? Basically, it happens when the uterus grows to the point that it starts pushing the ribs outward. It can happen to non-pregnant people, but when it happens to pregnant women, there is only one cure: delivery. So now my desire to give birth has skyrocketed. If I’m going to have to put up with this pain and pregnancy any longer, I’d like it to be less than twenty-four hours more. But we’ll see…
Aside from that, everything seems to be ship-shape. Baby’s heart rate is staying around 150 bpm and my weight is up just a bit from last week. At this point, I think my total gain is probably around twenty-eight pounds, but I didn’t check my chart this time, so I’m not totally certain of that.
Okay, this is the end for now. Even though the kids are now sleeping, I’ve had a phone call that has thrown me off just as badly as my kids do. Not a bad phone call, just a distraction. Until next time.
My family is watching Shrek the Third for the second time today. Mike was quizzing me on what my plans or hopes were for the evening and I caved and told him to just put in the movie so I could have some time to think about it and relax. I went shopping this afternoon and totally exhausted my hugely pregnant body while Mike and the kids napped. Mike decided that playing games online until five in the morning was a good idea…so he didn’t get much sleep last night. I was smart and went to bed considerably earlier, but I’m still feeling the interruption of sleep. I’m having lots of back pain, abdominal pain, shoulder pain…oh, I could go on forever, really. I’m hoping every day for this kid to come – but still trying to have something to look forward to each week that distracts me. Last week it was a date night on Thursday. Once we were home from our date, I let myself go back to wanting labour to start. Now I have a deadline – either by Wednesday or not until after the 1st. Jenny’s birthday is on the 1st and we’re having a party for her that day. I figure if I have the baby on Wednesday (or sooner), I’ll be home by Friday at the latest and that will give me a day at home before her party. If this was my first baby, there is no way I’d be willing to even plan a party until long after my due date, but as it is my third, I have no choice but to jump back into life hours after giving birth. Anyway, all I have to do is make it to Wednesday without thinking about it much and then I’ll actually want the baby to wait until the following week. My desired date of delivery was previously the fourth of June, which would only be four days early. The reasons for this are rather silly – Jenny and Elias were both born on Wednesdays – the first and the sixth. My birthday is the sixth of October, Mike’s is the tenth of February, so thus far, we all have our birthdays in the first ten days of the month. This little quirk of mine is closely related to my obsession with symmetry and I suspect it comes from the same place that my need to organize my closet by rainbow colour order does (have I ever mentioned that it gives me great pleasure that red and green come before blue in the rainbow?). But I digress.
Where was I going with that anyway? I obviously enjoy going off track..I think it serves as a nice distraction when I’m in pain or dealing with the frustrations of pregnancy.
I could go on and on about myself and the same old thing, but I actually had something to write about that is unrelated to me. I know, amazing.
I often read the strange or odd news headlines when I check my email and today there was something that caught my eye – a German couple attempted to sell their baby on eBay. You can read the story, but basically, they put him on eBay saying he had gotten too loud and they wanted one euro for him. The child was taken away from his parents, authorities are looking into the possibility of child trafficking and they claim it was a joke. Personally, I believe them. Who doesn’t joke like that once in awhile? However, they were obviously lacking in brains to go so far as to post him on eBay. The thing I do find funny is that people will be appalled by this and not give any thought to the fact that they wanted one euro for him. This is about $1.57. If they were actually hoping to sell him, do you really think they would post him publicly on eBay for such a low price? I seriously doubt it. There are other ways to do things like this – I hate to think of people who actually sell their children. This is not the way to go about it. Of course, it is possible that I’m wrong and they weren’t joking, had a devious plan to take any offer for their child and actually sell him. But if I’m right, I sincerely hope that they reunite the parents with their child quickly. Yes, give them a very serious lecture on why this is so stupid and keep an eye on them, but get the baby back to his parents. If this was a joke, they will regret it for the rest of their lives. The time, however brief, that they are separated from their son, will always be felt by them, even if he doesn’t remember it. There have been many times in recent years where authorities have either waited too long to step in or stepped in when it wasn’t needed and children and often parents suffer for it. It is horrifying that children have died in the care of their parents because of abuse and yet something like this sends the police running to take the kid away. Anyway, that’s what I wanted to say about that.
And now back to me. Tomorrow puts me at two weeks from my due date. If I push to wait two weeks for induction if I’m overdue, it means that I could be four weeks away still. Yikes. I’m going to attempt to remain optimistic, though, and just focus on the next event.
On a very positive note, I saw my doctor on Thursday and was told that since April 20th, I’ve only gained about a pound. I lost some weight the week before and then put it back on…but overall, I think I’m at about twenty-seven pounds gained. This is wonderful, because I had all sorts of lovely people tell me that I may have only gained thirty-three and twenty-seven pounds with my first two kids, but this was my third and I’d probably gain forty or fifty. Of course, one of these people was a representative for a fitness club trying to sell memberships at a trade show, but still. Some people just don’t have any tact. And ha ha, I am not going to gain fifty pounds, so there.
Also from my doctor’s appointment – my blood pressure is good and not too low like it has been. I am still faithfully taking my iron supplement (nasty stuff) twice a day so I will hopefully have higher stores of iron before the baby is born. The baby is head down and not moving nearly as much anymore, we suspect just from lack of space. Heart rate is good, etc etc. It gets tiring going to the doctor every week at the end of pregnancy, but at least it’s reassuring knowing that everything is still going well.
Well, that’s probably enough for today. With any luck, I’ll have the baby soon….or at least find enough activity to distract myself for a few more weeks.
May 13, 2008
I’m not promising creativity today. I had a long weekend full of emotional and physical upheaval (well, maybe that’s a stretch) and I’m feeling disappointed that I’m still pregnant.
Timelines are nice…I’ll go with that.
Thursday morning: Make food, pack kids into car, go to church for Bible study potluck and to practice song for Sunday morning offering. While waiting to start practicing, my brother-in-law’s aunt comes in and announces to everyone that my sister-in-law had her baby that morning. I had no idea and hearing it with her at the same time as everyone else wasn’t very much fun. This combined with hormones and a very unpleasant and brief telephone confrontation with my mother-in-law led to a good hour of crying. I managed to feel somewhat better until I got home, at which time I cried for another hour. Fortunately, Mike called and offered to come home early. Josh (our other brother-in-law, who Mike works with) was leaving work so that he and Lacey could go see our new nephew. I figured that if Josh could leave, it wouldn’t hurt Mike to leave early either. Mike came home, the kids got up from their nap, we went to the hospital and I promptly fell in love with Hayden Oliver. I even got to change his first dirty diaper (I know, gross…but somehow I felt honored to do it). I also decided that after all the emotions, it would be nice to just get it over with and have my baby then and there. That obviously didn’t happen. Still, I came home and tried all sorts of things hoping something would happen. Decent Braxton Hicks contractions ensued…but sadly nothing more.
Friday: A relatively normal day that ended with seeing Hayden in the hospital again. He’s such a feather – he was only two days early but weighed 5 lb 8 oz and was 18 in long. We went out to supper afterwards and I again had some more good Braxton Hicks that led nowhere.
Saturday: Went to A&W for breakfast and actually beat everyone else there. This is rare, but our kids just keep getting up earlier all the time. After that, I took the kids to the Farmer’s Market and Mike went to play tennis. When we were done, we went up to the courts and let the kids play with the extra tennis balls while I attempted to relax and not pay attention to the feeling that the baby was going to fall out of me. Tennis finished up, we went to have ice cream with Mike’s friend Nick and then we went home. I can’t exactly remember anything between going home and going to the hospital at 2:30 to register, but when I got there, I was again having such strong contractions that the lady doing my paperwork suggested that I go upstairs and get on the monitor. About forty-five minutes later, I walked out of the hospital after even my strongest Braxton Hicks couldn’t be seen on the screen. At least I got some good hospital ice out of the deal. In the evening, we ran over to drop Mom’s birthday present off and the kids jumped on the trampoline for a while. Ran to the store, bought a few things for supper, saw smoke and decided to investigate, drove out to find it was just a field burning, drove down to Taylor to pick up a movie and went home. I then fed the kids sandwiches in tortillas and put them to bed before making our supper. We watched Juno and I spent almost the whole movie grabbing onto Mike’s foot or hand and breathing through contractions, hoping that they might lead somewhere. I liked the movie, but it was a bit depressing watching a pregnancy go so fast.
Sunday: Wasn’t sure if we would go to church, but felt it was unfair to the kids to deprive them of that time, so we went anyway. I’m not a big fan of Mother’s Day because of some things that happened a few years ago, so I wasn’t sure how I would do. However, I got to see my nephew again and that mostly made up for it. We went out after church and actually ate somewhere new that wasn’t packed with people. I had some phenomenal salmon nuggets (it was better than it sounds) and rice and Mike had halibut and chips. After this pleasing lunch, we were able to go straight home and put the kids to bed. I worked a bit in the living room rearranging furniture while Mike ran back down to Taylor to take the movie back. I then had a nice nap on the couch with the front shade up, which was like laying in the sun, and when I woke up, my aunt was on the phone. When the kids got up, we went to meet the family at the park while they finished playing croquet and then we went for a barbeque at Josh and Lacey’s. I got to hold Hayden again, this time for about forty-five minutes, and it was lovely. It was a bit strange holding such a new baby and feeling by own baby kicking me from the inside. I can’t wait to see these kids next to each other (mine will more than likely dwarf Hayden). Mike was very good to me all day and made sure that we were doing what I wanted to do, which is the agreement we have with birthdays and Mother’s and Father’s Day. We played Phase Ten after we got the kids to bed and even though Mike usually complains because he’s no good at games like that, he won.
Monday: A normal day until the evening – I actually got a lot of work done on our bedroom during the day and wasn’t having contractions like crazy, which was very nice. We went to the church at seven for English Corner and a membership meeting that I was speaking at. The kids got to hang out with Marcy, which was nice for them and nice for Mike, who didn’t have to keep after them while playing games upstairs. I gave my three minute blurb on our Bible study (twice) and then we went home. I spent about two hours having really nice Braxton Hicks that made me very uncomfortable, but then they quit. I have resigned myself to four more weeks of pregnancy.
Tuesday (today): A little more productivity in the morning and then a doctor’s appointment. I have lost weight – not much, only about a pound in two weeks – and everything else is good. I am anemic, so I get to start taking Floradix (yay) until the baby is born. Also, this was the week for the strep test, so she checked for the positiion of the baby and everything else while she was at it. Baby is head down – let’s hope it stays that way – and I am sealed up tight. Also, the baby’s head is still somewhat far up, so I guess waiting longer for it to be born will be good as it was that situation that made me end up on Pitocin when I was having Elias. I’m trying to be positive, telling myself that there are still things to be done before the baby is due and that I want a big healthy baby and not a premature one – even a few weeks premature. I’m going to keep on like this as much as I can and keep being as productive as I can be without totally wearing myself out. I’m also going to stay away from the hospital unless I’m in incredible pain or my water breaks. Or I feel the urge to push, which would definitely send me in ASAP. I’m also going to drink some more Raspberry Leaf tea (I got the remainder of Alaina’s on Sunday and they’re already gone) and try to go walking more often. I don’t necessarily want to be early, but I would like to have a quick and easy labour, and these things may just help.
I’m sorry that this is lacking in eloquence and is so long winded. I may not be very entertaining for the next few weeks (I use it all up in real life).
April 30, 2008
My ice cravings finally got so bad that I did the unthinkable. I bought ice. Gasp. I was growing tired of refilling the trays at home and stopping for the good small ice chips at restaurants, so I bought a big bag of ice that barely fit in my freezer for about $2.89. Not so bad, really, considering that I’ve probably spent that in gas money (HA! more than that, I’m sure) driving to fast food places to ask for free ice in the biggest cup they can spare. Speaking of that, I got reprimanded at Wendy’s (did I already mention that?) and then proceeded to feel guilty every time I tried to get ice without buying anything. If I’m actually eating something, that’s different – if they’ll give you free water, they will give you free ice. So, now I have a nice little supply that should last me the rest of this week (I think). They’re not ideal ice chips, but rather the round kind that are about an inch long and have a hole through the middle. Still, they’re better than homemade ice.
Did all of that sound as completely ridiculous as I think it did?? Good. That’s my life.
So, my doctor’s appointment yesterday revealed that I have gained more like four pounds in two weeks, rather than what I was hoping for at a pound per week. I’m not going to freak out about this because my doctor says it’s just fine. It’s just that I have this fear of hitting forty pounds gained in a pregnancy. I know, I probably have readers that have gained a whole lot more than forty, but so far, thirty-three is the most I’ve gained in a pregnancy and I’d love to keep it that way. It just makes it easier to lose the weight afterward.
Other than weight, my doctor seemed pleased with everything. I’m measuring large for where I’m at, which is not a suprise because my babies come big. In fact, she didn’t suggest a change in my due date, but just agreed with me that the baby is big like Jenny was (and Elias should have been). When I mentioned the fact that I’ve been getting Braxton Hicks very frequently even when I’m sitting down, and that they hurt, she said she figures I’ll be early. I’m not convinced of this, but you never know. I am convinced that Elias being born early was my fault and not the way it should have been. I expect to be late. I expect..to be…late. Sigh.
The highlight of the day (Tuesday) was making sweet potato and avacado sushi and going to a friend’s house for lunch. She kept Elias for me while Jenny and I went to the doctor, which is always a treat. That little boy does not like being confined to a stroller and does not like being told what to do (i.e. sit still, don’t stand up in the stroller, come back here, you little…). Jenny does somewhat better, although the draw of the play area is a bigger thing for her than her brother. I brought her with me yesterday because she has now had diarrhea for more than three weeks. She doesn’t seem sick, is eating fine, hasn’t had a fever, but seemingly can’t get back to normal digestion. So now I get the super fun task of collecting a stool sample. Hooray for me! I am willing to go through it, because obviously, a small child who can’t process things normally is somewhat worrisome. They’re testing her white blood cell count and in the middle of the night last night, all I could think about was leukemia. I laid there crying, attempting to go back to sleep and imagining life without my beautiful Jenny. This is a very bad habit. Before I had her, when Mike still went out of town for work, I would imagine all sorts of awful things when he was five minutes late calling or getting home. And now that I have children, I have three people to think this way about (well, four, because I also worry that I might lose the baby).
Turns out Jenny has only one symptom of leukemia – the diarrhea thing – and I shouldn’t worry. Not only that, but if it became something we had to face, my cousin went through it when she was three or four and so my family has been there before. I shouldn’t worry anyway, because I know it’s not good for me and God doesn’t like it (really…I imagine it breaks His heart that we worry so much sometimes).
Well, now that I’ve brought back my fears and cried a little more, I think I’ll go read about food. I always feel better when I do that.
April 1, 2008
I’ve had bad days before – plenty of them. I’ve had awful days and in-between days, but every so often, I just have one of “those days”. The kind that makes you feel like curling up in a ball and shutting everything out – including the people you love. I love my kids and I love my husband, but the demands on my time have suddenly come to a crescendo. Here’s my day….starting last night (because that’s a big part of it):
Guilt trip Mike into doing dishes around nine o’clock, feel guilty about it, but whatever.
Get up at one o’clock to deal with Jenny, who has pooped her pants. I saw it coming, but what can you do? Toddler with diarrhea, no diapers, this is what you get sometimes.
Get up at six o’clock to go the bathroom, take Jenny again just in case she feels like repeating her accident a second time.
Wake up when Mike gets up, wonder why he’s leaving so early, go back to sleep hoping that the kids sleep in a bit.
Wake up approximately twenty minutes after Mike leaves and force myself to get out of bed to get the kids up. Spend the next hour (or more) in bed with them trying to wake up.
Feed everybody breakfast of pound cake and strawberries. Am I a good mother or what? Just so concerned with my children’s diets.
Fast forward…the in-between hours weren’t so bad, mostly the same as any other day.
Make very nice lunch of salmon and green and yellow beans that Jenny actually eats (it’s a miracle – I guess I get one today after all). Watch Elias proceed to put most of his lunch onto his lap.
Go to doctor’s appointment and deal with kids that don’t want to remain in the stroller. Ask doctor about Elias’ skin condition and finally get a small breakthrough – a referral to a dermatologist. Of course, it can’t be in town, but has to be two and a half hours away and probably completely at the whim of that office as to when we go in. Look forward to driving to Grande Prairie by myself, as it is bound to be on a day that Mike won’t be able to get off work.
On the way home, listen to demands from Jenny for gum that lead to consequences for her that had to wait until we got home, which is not my favourite way of doing things. Go through the process of telling her why she’s in trouble a good ten minutes after she’s been yelling at me.
Put the kids to bed, fortunately without much trouble.
Come out into the kitchen, look around the house and cry.
Balance on the verge of tears while writing and checking my email.
That’s the kind of day it has been. The vastly overwhelming kind that really does make me wish I could take a nap for about a week. Even napping today should be out of the question, regardless of how tired I am. In this house, if I don’t do it or beg Mike to do it, it doesn’t get done. That counts for everything. I have laundry piling up, the kids’ room is a mess (although nothing can be done about that while they’re sleeping, anyway), the kitchen is a wreck, the living room is…you guessed it, a wreck, and the remains of lunch are still waiting for me in the high chair where Elias left them.
All that and I’m having pain in my stomach again because of the baby. And I feel like eating lots of junk and drinking chocolate milk and laying on the couch reading until I fall asleep. And then when Mike gets home, turning him to robot mode where he’ll do all the chores without complaining or remembering having done them. Okay, so the second thing isn’t actually possible, but I sure wish it was sometimes. A robot would be nice.
As for pregnancy (I guess I’d better throw it in here, even though I mostly just feel like complaining today), everything is ship shape. No diabetes (no surprise there), slightly low hemoglobin, but not low enough to worry about, normal blood pressure, normal weight gain, measuring appropriately for my due date, active baby with strong heart beat. If only the rest of my life were that easy.